The Beach!

Tuesday morning I slept in. Very nice. Michelle gave me a ride to the mall. I met Alicia at the mall and we went t the beach.

But I had to wait forever for Alicia to get there. She was so late, cuz she got caught up doing something in school. I guess I'm just not important enough for her. On the other hand, it's good that her education is so important to her that it makes her forget the world around her.

Well, she finally got there, and we went to the beach. I got in the water and the tempature was just perfect, but the water was way more salty than I had expected, so I didn't stayn in for very long.

I did experience something very peculiar as I was in the water. I went out until the water reached my hips, and then I started swimming in a straight line along the shore, but when I stopped I could not reach the bottom with me feet.... very strange since I just swam in a straight line... but it was fun.

Alicia and I then spend some hours just laying in the sun. I usually don't like that, but we did have fun.

We then went to Wal-Mart so I could do a little shopping, and the we went to institute. Alicia got us the wrong bus tho, so we were like 45 min. later for class... but it was still really good.

After institute I went home by bus again... this time with out getting lost. Which is really good, cuz Michelle and Yo is out of town the rest of the week so they can't come and get me if I get lost again...

ALOHA!!!

As I wrote in my first post from Hawai'i, I heard the word ALOHA! a billion times on my first day here, actually it started before I got here, it already started on the plane from LA to Hawaii.

And it didn't getter any better on my "2nd" day here - sunday.

At church all the teachers and speakers started out by saying: "ALOHA! brothers and sisters"

and then the whole congregation would reply: "ALOHA!" in one voice.

To me that is a little weird. Cuz it doesn't really seem reverent to me, to do that duuring a sacrament meeting or a sunday school or preisthood lesson.

I know it's part of there culture and that is how you do it here... I would just have to get used to it.

Besides sunday I did nothing but hang out with Alicia all day... I loved it...

Well, sunday morning we got picked up by a guy named Dave for church. As I get in the car we chat a little bit and I tell him that that I am from Denmark.

He tells me that he knows someone whoe speaks a little danish, I get excited and ask who it is, to which he answers: "It's a girl named Alicia".

Now I'm not so excited anymore cuz I already know her... But he gets a littl surprised when I tell him that she is my girlfriend, and that is why I am in Hawaii.

So as I said after church we just hung out and relaxed. I enjoyed it.

In the evening Alicia got me a ride to the placewhere I am staying now, from one of her roommates, I don't remember her name, but thanks to Alicias roommate, I really appreciate it.

The people I am staying with is Michelle and her husband Yo. Michelle is danish and her maiden name was Bång, I have n idea what her last name is now.

It seems like Michelle really enjoys having someone to speak danish with again... she talks alot :)

Monday morning we went to institute. We took a PoGP class. It was really good. We talked about Moses and God, and a lot about the creation. I enjoyed it.

Then I went to the Ala moana shopping center while Alicia went to class and work. It was really nice, it is an out side, so I could enjoy the sun while I was there. I spend almost 6 hours there by my self, but time flew by.

Then Alicia came and we went to the beach. We didn't go into the water for real, but that is the plan for today.

Then we went to fhe. It was good, but I was way too tired to really enjoy it.

As I took the bus to get home I got of the wrong place and got lost... not what I needed since I was really tired... but michelle and yo were really nice and then came and picked me up.

So it all went well.

Honolulu, Hawaii

ALOHA! - I have heard that word a billion times since and got on the plane in LA to go here.
So I'm finally here... I arrived at the airpot at 0915 pm local time... I had been on the go for a little over 24 hours by then. I was tired and sweaty... and very very hungry... you just don't get full by plane food.
The first thing I noticed was how warm it was. It was dark out side but still like 23 degrees celsius. And now it's midnight and it's still around 20 degrees. I love it.
When I first got here, I went and got my bag, it came out really quick, but then then Alicia, was nowhere to be found.
So I sat on a bench waiting for her to come pick me up. She finally walks in... and walks right pass me... thanks a lot girlfriend.
It seemed like she was looking at me, but she apparently wasn't, so I had to get up and walk AAAAALL the way over to her, far far away from the exit.
She had some very nice friends who picked us up and took us, well mostly me to Wendy's, It was great.
Then we went to the place where Alicia stays, and hung out until my the guy, I'm staying with for tonight, came home.
As I entered Alicia's house some of her friends were there, so I wanted to say hi. I went to shake hands with the girl who were next to me, but in Hawaii they give a hug and a kiss on the cheek, and she went to do that, but since I'm not used to that it got a little awkward, and it ended up in a high five. And then I gave high fives all the way around. I like that much better. I don't think I can get into the hug and kiss thing with people I don't know, not in two weeks anyway. It's just getting a little to close to my taste.
But I get the feeling that a lot more awkward moments are coming my way on that account, but I will just have to deal with it as it comes.... but I do wish that Alicia had warned me on that one.
Now I am here, and I can't sleep. I'm on danish time and I am supposed to be in church right now... but I will try to get some sleep... soon.
Well that's it for tonight.....
Mahalo(another word I heard a billion times by now) and good night.

I wonder....

...why people ask stupid questions.

I'm leaving for Hawaii in less than a week now, and I still don't have a place to stay over there, and that's a problem, but I'm working really hard at it and I'm sure that Alicia are too... even though she at the same time has to find a place for herself to live.

But what bugs me is that when I talk to people about this, they all ask the same stupid questions:

- Can't you stay with her?

- Doesn't she has some family there you can stay with?

- She must have some friends there that you can stay with?

What do people think? If I could answer yes to any of these three questions, I wouldn't have the problem of not having a place to stay in Hawaii.

It's not like that these three things are the first once we have thought of. Please, think before you ask, it is allowed.

Well, I will keep trying to find a place, and I am sure, so will she, and then I will hope for the best and trust in the Lord.

I know that my redeemer lives!

I truly know that My Savior and Redeemer lives. I have felt it in my heart. The Holy Ghost has testified to me that it is true, and I can not deny it.

The Hymn "I Know that my Redeemer Lives" say it better than I can, so I will let it speak for me:

I know that my Redeemer lives.
What comfort this sweet sentence gives!
He lives, he lives, who once was dead.
He lives, my ever-living Head.
He lives to bless me with his love.
He lives to plead for me above.
He lives my hungry soul to feed.
He lives to bless in time of need.

He lives to grant me rich supply.
He lives to guide me with his eye.
He lives to comfort me when faint.
He lives to hear my soul’s complaint.
He lives to silence all my fears.
He lives to wipe away my tears.
He lives to calm my troubled heart.
He lives all blessings to impart.
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He lives, my kind, wise heav’nly Friend.
He lives and loves me to the end.
He lives, and while he lives, I’ll sing.
He lives, my Prophet, Priest, and King.
He lives and grants me daily breath.
He lives, and I shall conquer death.
He lives my mansion to prepare.
He lives to bring me safely there.

He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
“I know that my Redeemer lives!”
He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
“I know that my Redeemer lives!”

Especially the 2nd vers means a lot to me. Cuz I have seen a lot of that in my life.

I that Christ is my Savior and Redeemer. I know that he suffered and died for me. I know he was resurrected.

I know that my Redeemer lives.

The girl you saw me with...

You inquired as to who the girl you saw me with was, the answer is simple. I am a charitable man and took pity on a crazy american that was visiting Danmark. End of story.

@ The Airport...

Here I am, at the Amsterdam airport at 0405 am. 3 hours until take-off. I haven't slept at all... I just can't sleep. It's been a problem for a long time now.
I'm wathing Iron Man, as I write this. Well, I'm listening to Iron Man in the background as I write this. It's a really good movie, I forgot how great it really is.... I should watch it more.
There are so many things I want to do with my life. I'm not doing any of them. I'm not where I'm supposed to be, and no I'm not talking about the airport. I'm talking about where I am in my life.
I have been home off my mission for almost six years now, and haven't done any of things I wanted to.
I have never thought I would have been home for this long and still not married. Still not have the job I want and still not in control of my economy.
I miss my ex-girlfriend. She dumped me more than four years ago and I still miss her. Sometimes I miss her so much that it hurts. How can that be?
She just spend a year and three months in France. In that year and three and months, I have learned to control my feelings and emotions for her and keep them down, and I hope that one day she will trust me again and become my friend. Even thoug I know that that day is far in the future, I pray every day that it will come.
As work hard every day at getting my life together I feel it coming a little closer all the time.
Right now I'm trying to stay focused on living the gospel and being worthy of my priesthood and temple covenants.
It's tough, but I can do it, I will make it a little at the time. And I slowly feel the power of the atonement in my life, and the healing power of the savior.
At the time I really miss my mission, and I wish I could go back and serve the Lord again in Idaho. I have never been happier in my life than I was when I was serving. I wanna feel that way again.
I know that I one day will as I stay true to the Gospel and the Savior, and trust that he will help me through my trials and bless me in the end.

Women

A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.

So when is happiness going to come around?

So, a little over three years ago my girlfriend, at the time, dumped me. I really loved her. I had never loved anyone like that before and I have never loved anyone like that since.
We weren't together for very long, but it was the happiest time in my life, besides my mission. That girl made me SO happy. I have never felt so happy in my life, not before I met this girl and not since.
Was heart broken when she dumped me and told me that she didn't love me and never had and never would.
I loved that girl, and somewhere in my heart I still do.
So the past three years I haven't been happy. I've tried to be. I've done my best to keep myself happy, but I haven't been really happy.
I have dated other girls since, really nice girls too. But I have never been able to be in a serious relationship, cuz somewhere I still love this girl.
I have met a couple of girls since that I could have loved as much, and that I could see myself marrying but neither of these girls wanted to be with me.
That just made my pain bigger. The pain of loneliness and rejection, a pain that I would not wish my worst enemy to experience.
So even tho the past three years a have been mostly pain, there have been times when I have been able to put this pain in the background and just forget about it and enjoy my life, but it doesn't take much to remind me of my loneliness and rejection, and the pain comes right back and so does my tears.
I can't count the nights when I cried myself to sleep.
Tonight I talked to a friend of mine who just broke up with her boyriend, and I told her that it has been more than three years since I was truly happy.
She then tells me that she doesn't want to be three years down the road and not happy. And trust me neither do I, but here I am. And there is nothing I can do about it.
People tell me I have to be happy for what I have and be happy with my single live. And that might be true, but I just can't. I want to be happy with my life, but no matter what I do, I'm just not completely happy.
So here I am, three years down the road, not happy, but wanting to be.
So when is happiness going to come around?

I Hate...

When I judge people, writing stupid blog posts, getting out of bed too late, celery, snow, working saturdays and sundays, cold weather, people who thinks they own the store when they are grocery shopping, getting mad over small things, being single, stupid danish tv-shows, female stand-up comedians, pictures of myself, when I can't control myself, bad drivers, saying stupid things to a girl I really like, people who complaint about everything, stupid questions, sweden, Nik & Jay, The Steelers, being asked why I'm not married or when I get married, when I have nothing to do, having too little time, when I do things that goes against what I believe, the tv show Moment of truth, when I waste my day doing nothing, S-train passengers, Brøndby IF, darkness..

I guess I don't hate a lot of things.... I guess that's good-